Im Always The Bad Guy...

I know im the bad one..
Everybody keep pointing at me as im always the bad one..
I always try to be a good friend..
I didnt mean to say it..
I just say what's the reality..
I did apologise but u kick my apologise aside..
Like trash!
What can i do..
I just a human being same as u are..
But the blame was only on me..
I have feelings too..
I can feel all the emotions..
But now..
I can only feel sadness!
It sucks but what can i do..
i cannot hide this feeling..
Why im the one who always take care other peoples feeling..
But except my own??
Everyday i keep thinking the same thing...
Over and over..
If i do a wrong thing..
Please..
Just tell me...
By doing that, it will make more okay..
And i promise not to do it again..
From now on...
I will not open my mouth too everyone..
i will throw out my happiness...
Except for my teachers and family...
I hope ur happy!
This all was too sudden...

sing-along-song

GAVY NJ

Gavy NJ...
Seriusly, i like their songs..
Especially A Love Story and Suddenly..
The song lyrics have a very special meaning to me...
Meaning about my life..
Hehe..;)

Here's the MV for a love story..
MV-A Love Story

Enjoy..;)
That's all..
See ya!

Its Really Really.......

Bloodshot eyes
More nightmares
Lost relationships
Leaking tears

Every day
All alone
Hate and misery
Broken heart

Dark soul
Silent screams
Reaching out
Cold air...

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Why do I feel that I am alone?
Why do I cry the tears I cry?
Why do I live to see tomorrow?
Why do people treat me differently?
Why do I still care?
Why do I always look for the stare?
Why does it still hurt?
Why do I feel trapped in a dark room?
Why am I being punish?
Why is my heart broken?
Why must this hurt so much?
Why me?
Why must i walk this alone?
I continue to ask myself why?

[Credits to the people who created this two poems]


The two above poems represent about this feeling i have lately...
I hope u guys can figure it out for yourself..
I hate to cry everyday..
I hate to pleased anyone else except for my own..
I love u guys so so much but some of u guys dont love me...
They think i'm some kind of a doll..
That u can just play around..
That pisses me off!
Urghhh!!
I feel like i wanna hit myself at the head...
Let it bleed..
Let it swollen or have bruises..
I can take that pain..

I really appreciate what have guys do for me especially to my beloved people...
Without u guys..
I cannot barely stand with my own two feet..
I always put too much pressure onto u guys..
I always burden u guys..
I am sorry..
U guys must be hate me so much right?
If u do,
i wont disturb u anymore...

It's always hard to tell the REAL THING.

TRUTH

There always lies aroud it..
Keeping the truth inside is hard..
But sometimes thats just the way to make the people u love happy...
Even it makes my life suffer, not happy and horrible..

The only person that only knows the real truth is just urself..
Thats why it is hard..
It can make u unhappy always..
u always thought about negatives about urself..

Sometimes there's no one that u can talk to..
U can feel the fear,the misery,and sadness..
To the special person..
I was happy to get to know u..
Eventhough now we are very wide apart..
I wish u all the best in ur life and..
I hope u can that special someone..

That the meaning truth to me..
Mayb to urself can be painful..
But sacrifies had to be make to the people around u..
Especially to ur famuily and friends..

That's all from now..
Gomawon..

Days flew away so fast......

SPM just only a few months from now..
The march monthly test just passed..
And my result was BAD!
Eventhough there was no failed..
But its still considere as bad to me..
But that was the past..
I have to forget it..
And move on..

Its been a while since my last post..
My computer having some technical prob..
Its been 1 month(i think)
Hehe..=D

Last week,i went to Genting..
Like Omg..
So damn fun..
I havent been there for almost 4 years..
But luckly my parents take my siblings there for the weekends..
And the next day, the bought me a new phone..
Thnx mom and dad!=)
I love u so so much!<3

I think thats all from now..
See ya!=)